When projects end, I feel let down. Take, for example, our house sale. To say that selling and buying a house last summer consumed my attention would be quite the understatement. I cancelled our vacation because of it, put off looking for a job, and lost a whole lot of sleep. Every conversation turned into real estate. In fairness, it was chaotic, but by August I realized I had ruined everyone’s summer and bought us a trip to Disney World for the upcoming fall to make amends. That involved taking my kids out of school at exactly the wrong time because of unforeseen academic issues. We moved into our house in the end of August. The kids went back to school and I was lost, disoriented, and kind of sad. When I took stock, I noticed how far behind I’d gotten in pretty much everything else. Then I feel stressed out, in constant catching up mode, with a healthy side helping of guilt for my foolhardy ways.
I believe, as I’ve said before, that moment of awareness is magic, because I get to decide what to do next.
PAY ATTENTION BIG BOOMING VOICE. My off-kilter ways are not all bad. Generally, I accomplish what I begin, as evidenced by my lovely new home. Those ways will not be eradicated, just mitigated. After all, this one is about balance, not about tipping just as severely in the opposite direction.
I decided to draw a Motherpeace card to enrich each my three words. After I wrote the posts corresponded to the three words, I chose three cards with my eyes closed from a shuffled deck spread out in front of me. For Balance, I drew the Son of Wands. “When you get this card in a reading, it suggests a buoyant, energetic way of being in the world. ” (from the Motherpeace book)