2013: Word One

Balance 

When I was a kid, my family teased me about the way I ate. All of the meat. Then all of the potatoes. Etc. That plays out in other areas of my life in less entertaining ways. When something captures my fancy, I am all in.  The strategy has a lot of advantages, like my ability to accomplish Herculean tasks, but definitely has its downsides. Heaving the weight of my focus onto one project doesn’t always turn out the way I intend.  Too much attention can absolutely be a bad thing, especially, as I hear my friend Mary say, unconscious attention.  Sometimes my projects are people and those occasionally dip into disaster territory.   

Lovely Home

When projects end, I feel let down. Take, for example, our house sale. To say that selling and buying a house last summer consumed my attention would be quite the understatement.  I cancelled our vacation because of it, put off looking for a job, and lost a whole lot of sleep.  Every conversation turned into real estate. In fairness, it was chaotic, but by August I realized I had ruined everyone’s summer and bought us a trip to Disney World for the upcoming fall to make amends. That involved taking my kids out of school at exactly the wrong time because of unforeseen academic issues.  We moved into our house in the end of August.  The kids went back to school and I was lost, disoriented, and kind of sad. When I took stock, I noticed how far behind I’d gotten in pretty much everything else.  Then I feel stressed out, in constant catching up mode, with a healthy side helping of guilt for my foolhardy ways.  

This year, I intend to take one conscious breath before the flicker becomes the inferno.

I believe, as I’ve said before, that moment of awareness is magic, because I get to decide what to do next.    

PAY ATTENTION BIG BOOMING VOICE.  My off-kilter ways are not all bad.  Generally, I accomplish what I begin, as evidenced by my lovely new home.  Those ways will not be eradicated, just mitigated.  After all, this one is about balance, not about tipping just as severely in the opposite direction.

I decided to draw a Motherpeace card to enrich each my three words.  After I wrote the posts corresponded to the three words, I chose three cards with my eyes closed from a shuffled deck spread out in front of me.  For Balance, I drew the Son of Wands.  “When you get this card in a reading, it suggests a buoyant, energetic way of being in the world. ”  (from the Motherpeace book)

5 thoughts on “2013: Word One”

  1. Well said! I am also very schooooommmm laser focus on one thing to the detriment of all others. Then I find myself feeling hurt/angry that people are complaining about what was wrong/not done etc…instead of what I accomplished. LMNOP, that is where I need to be as well this year!

  2. “… a buoyant, energetic way of being in the world.” I love that.

    I’ve had phases where I’ve been ‘all or nothing.’ I can still lean that way so balance, like discernment, will always be on my learning curve.

    Thanks for this,
    Jody

  3. Love this: “…that moment of awareness is magic, because I get to decide what to do next.”

    Balance is a great choice. I think I’m at the other end of the spectrum, with my pen dipped in way, way too many ink wells. I envy your ability to have laser focus at times. Meet you in the middle? 😉

  4. Love this: “…that moment of awareness is magic, because I get to decide what to do next.”

    Balance is a great choice. I think I’m on the other end of the spectrum, with my pen dipped in way, way, way too many ink wells. I envy your ability to achieve laser focus at times. Meet you in the middle? 😉

    If you get two versions of this comment, blame Mr. Google who may or may not have eaten my first attempt.

  5. This was one of my “chosen” three words last year. I haven’t thought about my three words for this year yet, but I think I’m keeping this one. Thanks for sharing.

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